Sometimes we walk down paths in our lives that don’t allow us to see much farther than the now. In cases as these, questions of the future can flood our thoughts and cause great distress. Only when we release those worries to God, can we follow His will with peace and joy.
Have you ever been super stoked about something and felt it was the will of God, only to later feel scared, intimated or no longer motivated to complete the task? That was totally me a couple weeks ago. Until I fully recognized where those feelings of unworthiness were coming from, I experienced a great amount of distress and spent many hours pondering what the future may hold.
Only a few months back, I had been continually praying for God to show me His will for my life in terms of what to do after high school. I explored many options only to end up feeling that one of the paths I never thought would be a reality made the most sense. With time, God showed me scripture and opened a variety of doors to guide me in the way He wanted me to go. When I finally made the conclusion that He was indeed calling me to a certain field and location of schooling, I was excited and passionate to do all I could to continue to follow in God’s path for my life.
With time however, I began to feel insecure about my experience (or lack thereof) and ability to complete the program I felt God had called me to do. I contemplated different career paths that sort of followed what I felt God had told me to do- things that were easier and didn’t require me to rely on God for my strength. As I pursued different possibilities for my future, I only realized what I was doing until after I read a daily devotion piece on partial obedience. I then understood that all this time I had been trying to short circuit the will of God by finding an easier way out, but still somewhat obey what He was telling me to do. I very quickly realized my wrong doings and realized that all along, God wanted me to rely on Him so we could grow closer in our relationship. I had forgotten how important and full of growth time of relying on God is. While I still may be skeptical in my abilities at times, I know God has my back and wants for me to succeed so I can live out His will for my life. Ephesians 2:10 is a great reminder of that. “For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.”
And because of that simple truth, I know that He will give me the strength and skills to complete all that I need to.
A perfect example of Biblical advice for a situation like this is Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
6 Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.
In my case, I sought out God’s will, listened to what He was pressing on my heart, then tried to depend on my own understanding of the situation and convinced myself I just wasn’t fit enough for the task. However, after my epiphany of realizing that I was about to disobey God if I completely changed my route in life, I turned back to casting my cares upon the Lord, and being honest with Him about how I felt. (1 Peter 5:7) In return to my cries for help, God sent down a passion and spirit of strength and confidence I hadn’t yet felt in this journey. I knew truly, and fully, that God simply wants me to rely on Him for strength not worry about doing it all on my own. I may not know what the future holds, but I do know I won’t be afraid to rely on God’s strength to do whatever His will for my life is.